Just When You Thought

I bet you thought that I had given up. I bet you thought you would never see my face again. I bet you thought I shoved my dreams and goals away. Think again.

I have always prayed for this and for that to happen, but I never truly put in the work. I sat here thinking "If it hasn't happened yet then it won't happen at all," but that is such an horrible way to think.

Thinking that way got me absolutely no where. Why would it? If you don't put any work in, why would something magical just happen and land into your lap?

Well, let me tell you why I decided to come back...

When I was 16 I signed with an agency. An agency that was not so good. I thought that Colby (using a fake name so I don't upset anyone) was actually going to help me. He kept asking for more photos and no matter what, they were never good enough for him. Ever.

It discouraged me.

I stopped caring because no matter how hard I tried it was never enough. Not in his book. So, I finally turned 18 and the contract went away. I found another photoshoot and remembered why I loved it in the first place.

An agency called Bricks Model Management messaged me through Instagram because they liked my style. I was so excited! THEY WANTED ME.

They asked for pictures and my measurements. Always have them ready to send and updated. Mine were so outdated that I had to take more.

I still have to send photos with my hair up. Procrastination will be the end of my career if I don't get my shit together. oops.. sorry.

I still want this so bad. I can feel it slipping away. I really can. But, I refuse to let it. I refuse to let go of it. Soooo what am I going to do? IM GOING TO TAKE THOSE PHOTOS. That's what!

I have a bridal shoot in a few days and I am very excited to do something more challenging. I am not going to give up. I refuse to let my face disappear before it even appears.

What is the moral of this story? I don't really know. Just take what you can and run for it.

Do not give up, we still have tomorrow. Even if we don't we have to think that way.

Kaitlyn Watkins

July.17.2018