A Bad Weekend

Honestly, I feel so bad. I have been looking forward to this weekend all week. I was booked with modeling photoshoots this weekend. It was amazing. I was excited. I felt like I was going somewhere with my modeling.

My week was so long. It was the same exact schedule as the week before and the week before and next week and the next week and the next. Wake up everyday at 4, get on the bus at 5:50, go to school, sit in the same dull classes, stare at a wall last period because I have no class, get on the bus at 3, listen to music, get home, homework, food, chores, shower, sleep. Everyday. It honestly gets a little depressing. Realizing that you don't have much of a life.

Oh and on weekends, I normally do the same thing. Go to my grandmas and church on Sunday.

This weekend was going to be a relaxer. A weekend that will help build my confident up, restart my brain, and just be happy. Something I could be proud of. This was the weekend that was going to just flush everything down the drain and have a fresh start.

That's honestly why I love modeling so much. Is that everyday it is a new adventure. New things to do. It's not a fixed schedule. Everyday is different.

I was so excited this whole week. I finally had something different going on. I woke up, got in the shower, got ready and was just so happy. We get in the car, nothing unusual going on with the car. We go to McDonald's get some food and head out.

We get about thirty minutes away from where we need to be. (We still had about an hour before the shoot). The car starts to act up! It starts jerking and the check engine light came on. We stopped somewhere to put oil in. Thought the problem was fixed. Nope.

My mom told me it would be more responsible to go home then going. Home we went. The whole car ride I tried not to cry and disappoint my mom. I was very upset because now I feel horrible. People were depending on me. ON ME.

I hope others understand that this was by accident and this doesn't ruin my reputation.

I'm trying to understand that everything happens for a reason, but right now I can't come to believe it. I'll have a weekend to reflect on what I want in life and think of ways to make my week better.

xoxo,

Kaitlyn Watkins

09/23/17

Portrait of Young Man